There is no garuntee in life to be happy 110% all the time. There will be downfalls and tribulations that shake even the strongest person. I have learned what it means to be strong and standing up for what you believe in. I also have learned that even though you apologize to someone doesn't mean they are going to do the same. Growing up tends to be unnecessarily challenging at times. Even though I have felt like giving up a time or two I have learned that does no good. You have to strive on and be strong. All the trials and tribulations build character. They help you become who you will be, they show you that no matter what you can come through any storm no matter how bad the weather maybe.
No one said that growing up was going to be easy, infact it is just simply the opposite. In grade school I learned what it ment to be teased for being different. If you know me, if you truly knew me, you would know that I was the chubby little girl who had to wear not only eye glasses but I also had to wear a patch. Do you know the kind of names kids come up with for those who are different? Little kids can be cruel but it only gets worse. In highschool you get your first taster of bitter drama. There is a whole new crowd of people to try to fit in with and while I may not have had the eye patch I certainly wasn't the skinny minnie, I didn't fit in with the "popular" crowd. However I found my niche in a few good friends that still to this day I have contact with most.
As an adult the trials that we face only get stronger and they snarl their ugly teeth at you trying to break down the very person you are. The friends get even fewer and far between. You learn what you want in your friendships and you tolerate no less than the best. You want to surround yourself with those that love you unconditionally and that are there for you no matter what. The world is very cut throat and you learn you don't have time to deal with the petty drama that the world brings. They say life is a bitch and that you just have to deal with it. How true this sentance is.
I have come to realize who I am and what I need. I have also come to realize what I don't need in my life and I have seperated myself from it. Life is not fair sometimes, sometimes you just have to let the tears flow even though deep down you feel to strong, to proud to do so. Sometimes it is just better to cry get it out and move on to tomorrow because no matter what there is always a new tomorrow. The hope that tomorrow will be better than today, and for me that's worth living for. I may have lost the battle today, but that doesn't mean that the war is lost. Life is a everyday battle but until you give up the war is not yet lost. So next time you get knocked to your feet and don't want to get up, just realize that is not an option. You are far to strong to stay there in the dirt, rather get up, brush yourself of and look forward to tomorrow.
X.o.Nikki
